A lack of motivation, or discipline?..
Thoughts on discipline
A few weekends ago I ditched the city and headed to one of the most southern points of the Korean peninsula, to a secluded beach with some friends. It was the first swim and beach day of the year for most of us. Needless to say we may have overdone it a little. Drinks were had.
This following week was real slow for me. I can’t pinpoint whether it was a multi-day hangover that I haven’t had in awhile or just one of those off-times that come now and again. One of those periods where you just don’t have any motivation, aren’t overly positive, and feel overall lazy, careless and indifferent.
I’ve lived long enough to know this low points do come – and they soon leave. They usually follow periods of high performance or productivity, so I don’t overly mind the lack of output that comes with these low points.
A while back now I dabbled around with polyamory, it ultimately lead to me discovering I was operating from a scarcity mindset in a few of the domains of my life. I’ve since realized polyamory regarding a serious or long term relationship isn’t for me – nor would it be for any other self respecting man with options, in my opinion. But I’m happy to have explored it because the experience and insights were more than worth it.
I’ve been reading a lot of Rollo Tomassi’s work lately. One quote in a particular article really stuck out to me:
Back during the preparation period, prior to arriving in South Korea I had a conversation with my extensively traveled sister. She suggested I look into travel insurance. Of the million things on my brain, travel insurance was low on my priority list. I attribute this to never of had a major surgery. Plus, I had 50% coverage through my contract.
What proceeds is evidence that travel insurance should always be one of a traveler’s main priorities.
A few weeks ago while having a night on the town I was unfortunate enough to slip on some ice while walking that lead to breaking my ankle. Fractured Fibula & sprain on some ligaments of the inner part of my ankle was the result.
I required surgery, so will divulge what to expect in terms of experience and costs. I’ll also discuss some tips if you ever find yourself in a similar situation and how my school handled it.
**Dollar examples used are all rough estimations in CAD**
Confliction of goals & fear..
I feel I’ve always lived a conflicting life. Perhaps that’s just what comes with the territory of having diverse interests. Whether it’s my rubber arm when it comes to the party life – and then overdoing it – but also wanting to live a healthy lifestyle. Or the fact my teenage wardrobe consisted of Abercrombie & Fitch, Dolce and Gabbana beside Metal and Punk Rock band tees. I feel I’ve always been on the extreme ends of the spectrum. Ain’t no in between.
As a young, but-getting-to-that-age adult – or at least that’s the way I see it – I’m less concerned with a Slayer or designer shirt, and more conflicted over the direction of my future.
A taste of something new..
Earlier last year after arriving in Korea I had a taste of a lifestyle I had been curious of for a time now. Polyamory.
Polyamory boasts freedom, limitless love and strengthening of bonds between partners through respect, communication and experience. The idea has always intrigued me.
I came across a quote one time that went to the effect of; polyamory isn’t too good to be true, but it is too good to be easy.
We shall see.
A quick look at my romantic background: I’ve never held a long term relationship – Long term relationships defined as multi-year.
Rather a long list of shorter term affairs under a year where I’ve come to know a lot of women. Each one with their different strengths and weaknesses, quirks and shining attributions, dark histories or life experiences.
Does this give me enough experience to vouch on the topic? Shit, who knows. My blog though, so onward!